On the 1st February 2016 my partner collapsed, had a massive heart attack and passed away at the age of 51. I am only just coming to the conclusion this is real, even though I've arranged, attended and gone through his funeral and Sobbed my heart out nearly everyday. (Don't think I'll ever stop either)
What now?
Going through the usual humdrum everyday necessities, feeding our 5 cats (all rescue, was 8 , till Christmas 2014, since then more heart breaking grief too of losing 3) . Keeping the house clean etc : all of which am sure done on automatic pilot.
I knew life was short , but, whoa! ........ What a smack in the face, I too am 51, I know anyone could pass away anytime, but when you've never experienced a proper holiday, or done what you would like to do , you tell yourself " there's loads of time......"
I'm now telling myself " You best think gal what it is you want and what exactly ,is your purpose in this, limited lifetime yours."
Thinking ?????????????????????
